| Tuesday, December 15th, 2009 |
radpaolo
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8:54a |
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| Monday, December 14th, 2009 |
radpaolo
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3:19p |
Addendum.
After rifling through my Moleskine, I realize that the events that take place in the main story of Bi-Poseur happened nearly a year ago. December 19th to be precise. That means the staged reading took place a week to the day of my mom's death. You might remember that day. In fact, the basis for the main story for the show can be found on Live Journal. In this very LJ. You can read it here in fact.Oh cosmic fate. You never cease to amaze me. |
radpaolo
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10:13a |
The Word of the Day.
Expansion. That is/was the theme of the reading. The afterglow of the staged reading on Saturday is starting to wear off. It's being replaced with a sense of planning. I am living in that next steps phase. What do I do now. How do I do it. What needs to happen. But more on that later. The stakes of the reading didn't manifest themselves until a couple of minutes before I had to go up. I was presenting for the first time ever to a group of people the entire full length (even at Shitty First Draft status) version of my first ever solo show. Everybody was showering heaps of praise on me, after the reading. It was weird hearing what everyone was saying about the show. They did love it, just so you know, but the praise they were delivering, it felt like...did yall hear the same show I just read to them? It's not adding up in my head! I wanted to write a show, would've liked to mount it on stage for a run. I was more worried about it sucking and people hating it, and by extension hating me. I wanted it to be funny, etc etc etc. I had a certain amount of expectations for the show, and what everyone was telling me absolutely exceeded the expectations I ever could have had for it. Here's an example, but during the creation of the show, I was kind of worried/self-conscious that my show didn't have a 'social message' so to speak. That it was all just self-indulgent and masturbatory accounts of my life. But at the show multiple said how my show could be a great service in the mental health field - I humanize what it's like to be depressed/bi-polar/suicidal. That's great! And I didn't mean to do that on purpose! My dear friend and fellow solo performer (whom I adore) Coke said she cried throughout the performance, and called the show a Tour de Force. As she said that a tear was rolling down her face. Expansion. The stakes of the staged reading didn't just rise that day. But I feel like the stakes in the show, what I can do with this, and even with how I see myself as a person all rose because of this reading. And the last thing I want people to think is that this is coming from a place of hubris; this is Paolo you are talking to after all. I guess this means I should cut it out with that self-deprecation shit, huh? Now it's on to the next steps. |
| Sunday, December 13th, 2009 |
radpaolo
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10:46p |
Rap Chop.
The Staged Reading was more than a success. I'm still kind of processing it. I mostly want to bask in this afterglow though. I'll try to debrief tomorrow. |
| Saturday, December 12th, 2009 |
xxxplizit
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9:16p |
Sac-Con Reminder
For those who are going to Sac-Con (Scottish Rite Center) in Sacramento, we are hosting 2 tournaments: 12:30 PM: Street Fighter IV - PS3 2:30 PM: Tekken 6 - PS3 Single Elimination. Best 2 out of 3 games with Grand Finals being 3 out of 5. Remember when playing a set, winner must stay as the same character and loser may change. If you BYOC/BYOS, please be responsible for it. Prizes will be on hand. Good luck and have fun! |
| Friday, December 11th, 2009 |
xxxplizit
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9:08p |
Google's Autocomplete Fail
Okay, I was going to search for gifts that would fit best for my mom for Christmas, but stopped after this...  Definitely NOT something I wanted to see, especially when I had little cousins watching this. *facepalm* Current Mood:  disturbed |
| Tuesday, December 8th, 2009 |
radpaolo
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11:58p |
Now What?
The Shitty First Draft (tm) of Bi-Poseur is now officially legit. Now I let it sit until the staged reading on Saturday. I don't wanna see it, touch it, think about it, until then. I just wanna let it marinate, see what I have RIGHT NOW connects with audiences. It'll give me better perspective, versus trying to see what would please the audience on that particular Saturday. Does that make sense? I just don't wanna kill myself over three days, for one day's worth of reading when I know I'll be killing myself over this show many more times in the future for the eventual time that I do put it on stage. What an apt metaphor! |
| Monday, December 7th, 2009 |
radpaolo
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9:13p |
Transitions.
This blog is slowly (and maybe surely?) becoming the behind the scenes blog of my solo show. Good? Bad? Take that shit outside? Get a room? Things are happening! Paul Stein asked us in workshop why we did solo performing. Not in like a "DO YOU WANNA BE A FUCKIN' FIGHTER" UFC way, but rather as a way of assessing why we did what I did. The answer I came up with my head was that 'cause I couldn't hack it as a filmmaker. Seems fitting. |
| Sunday, December 6th, 2009 |
radpaolo
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9:50p |
It's just the details.
The show is beginning to consume my life. Kinda feeling one-dimensional just thinking (obsessing) about it all the time. Paul Stein (The director of Kamau's solo show) came to SF this weekend for a two day workshop. Today we all got 10-15 minutes of stage time with Paul giving us directing suggestions for our show. I wanted to workshop my end, because I honestly feel that once I got the end nailed down, the honest to god first draft would be done (I've been referring to revisions the past couple of days as the 'overhaul mk [x]'. The long-short of it was that I nearly lost my composure while reading the end. Without saying too much, the climatic moment in the show is when I have this final monologue with my mother's grave. Trust me, it's less hackneyed than the way it sounds. Or I'd like to believe it is less hackneyed than it really is. Anyway, it just kind of snuck up on me, I'm on stage actively trying to push back tears and not start blubbering. That really got to me. I suppose it's just a reminder that the stuff I'm writing does carry a lot of emotional weight to it, and that's not a compliment per say. I guess it just reminds me that I still got issues to work out. That's a good thing. I guess being taken by surprise via the material is what blindsided me and compelled me to write this. Solo performing is not therapy, and when it's done badly it's only a couple of steps removed from masturbating on stage profusely. There are some major things taking shape as far as my show goes. I'll keep you posted. |
| Thursday, December 3rd, 2009 |
kay0ss
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6:29p |
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azhp
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7:50a |
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kay0ss
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3:56a |
Livejournal's piece of shit auto-save feature does not work. Had 3 hours worth of shit I typed and now I have to type all this bullshit all over again because of a combination of Firefox sucking shit and going back for NO FUCKING REASON FUCK YOU and Livejournal only autosaving shit from fucking 2 HOURS AGO. Fuck you Livejournal, I hope you fucks can read this. Asshole fucks. |
| Wednesday, December 2nd, 2009 |
azhp
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3:23p |
FUCK THIS
(10:24:44 AM) julian: WTF we have pepsi (10:24:56 AM) sean: WHAT? (10:25:00 AM) julian: WTF (10:25:09 AM) julian: THIS IS AN OUTRAGE (10:25:35 AM) sean: fuck this i quit (10:25:50 AM) bdong44: the tiny difference in cola will make everyone ragequit (10:26:00 AM) sean: he thinks it's a tiny difference (10:26:01 AM) sean: COMMUNIST (10:26:16 AM) bdong44: no, I'm a uncolaist (10:26:23 AM) julian: /RAGE (10:29:51 AM) dsiu: pepsi > coke (10:30:06 AM) dsiu: it has the obama logo afterall (10:30:17 AM) julian: now i know you trippin (10:30:24 AM) glendon: ahh, excellent point. (10:30:45 AM) glendon: we must embrace change (10:34:07 AM) mferea: OMG!!! David reveals his liberal communist agenda! |
xxxplizit
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11:08a |
Only for the world of DS owners (video possibly NSFW)
Only in the world of Nintendo DS owners. First, we got Doki Doki Majo Shinpan, a game that lets you touch mostly lolis interactively. Next, we got a man who real-life married his Virtual Girlfriend from Love Plus? And then this? I wonder what's next on the list... Current Mood: disturbed |
xxxplizit
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9:58a |
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radpaolo
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8:47a |
Tiger Tiger Tiger Woods Yall
I am pretty knee deep in the writing of Bi-Poseur. The staged reading is coming up, and I think I am approaching completion of the first draft. With all this happening, I feel horrible for thinking up a completely new solo show I write. From the ground up no less. I've only told three people about it so far, and that's all the people who'll know about it at the moment. I feel like if I tell more I'd jinx it. Although I don't think it'll hurt to write a proof of concept in the next couple of days to get it out of my head, put it on the shelf, come back to it later, and for now just focus in on working on Bi-Poseur. It's one of those good problems to have I suppose. |
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